This journal is effectively closed.

I've moved over to light_the_light, and while this has a larger f-list that I can go to if I have questions concerning something, I'm more comfortable speaking about my fandom and personal life to a smaller, more private one. If you'd like to be friended, go ahead and ask, but there's a chance I may say no, since part of the reason that I moved was that I didn't feel safe in my own journal and desperately needed to. I was becoming scared and paranoid and upset, and it was just contributing to the mess I was.

I still check the friend's list on this journal, so I'll still see any friend's locked posts on here.

I've had this journal since I was 17 or so, and it contains a lot of painful stuff in my life, things I've both talked about and things that've occured within it. Things that I've recently realised I need to work through to try to get better, since I don't feel very well. I have the support and love of my friends to help me as I try to fix myself, and part of what I need to do is distance myself from the things that happened here. While I'm not trying to forget them, I can't keep dwelling on them, which I know I would do if I kept using this.

Since this post is open, I'm not going to get into my past here. I just ask that people please give me time to allow myself to work through my issues and respect my space. I've been working on my problems with lashing out and with being angry, and I'm sorry for all the times I've hurt people in the past. An apology may not make up for everything, but I am beginning to make the first steps toward becoming a better person.

Thank you.